This 20-Year-Old Stunner Documents Her Recovery From Anorexia on Instagram

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Amalie Lee isn’t your normal food blogger. 

 

Where most people snap pics of juicy burgers, ramen bowls and cheese plates, Amalie shares photos of Nutella-covered pancakes, bowls of candy and ice-cream sundaes.

That’s because the 20-year-old is trying to gain weight — not lose it — as she documents her recovery as an anorexic.

Amalie began struggling with her eating disorder in 2012 and later sought treatment at an outpatient center. 

"I went through a depressive phase in my mid-teens, and my perception of myself hit an all-time low," the blond beauty shares. 

"I just wanted to disappear. My eating disorder was never about looking like a model, it was a way to cope. I made bizarre rules for myself about what I allowed myself to eat, when, where — even what spoon to use. These rules made me feel safe and in control. But I had lost control, and the obsessive need for control controlled me in every way."

During her outpatient therapy, Amalie was able to overcome refeeding syndrome, which can sometimes prove fatal. Her metabolism increased so much that she suffered night sweats and extreme hunger pains.

“I reached a point where my BMI was dropping dangerously low, and if I kept on refusing recovery I would soon end up in a hospital bed,” says the stunning blonde, who had to consume 3,000 calories daily, while sedentary, just to gain a pound a week.

 

In recovery from eating disorders, there is a lot of focus on the physical part. Being ill means looking physically ill; dry skin, hair falling out and a thin and fragile frame. But guess what? Most ED sufferers are actually normal- or overweight. For me, recovery meant going from a body seen as abnormal and unappealing by others and society in general. But for some, recovery may mean letting go of a body seen as "fit" and ideal by society, and instead embrace a higher body fat percentage. A woman might get praised for her six pack, when she is in fact eating 1000 calories a day to maintain a body fat percentage so low that she does not even have her period. Social media rationalize eating disorders at times. It is not healthy to be ripped for fat. It is not healthy to eat restrictive. It is not healthy to obsess over weight and food. But fuck, it is a money maker. Zero calorie noodles, magazines lurking us with headlines that suggests we need to change. And the approval. The likes. But in the end, does it really matter? Back to recovery. Not everybody who recovers will end up on a perfect bmi of X. Mind-blowing fact: you can be healthy without looking like a fitness model, and people who looks like fitness models are not always healthy. I am damn proud of my physical change as you can see, and I enjoy showing you my progress. But always remember that healthy is not a look, and neither is recovery. #realcovery is for everyBODY

REDEFINING HEALTHY(@amalielee)发的照片 ·2015-06-29,17:06 PDT

In 2014, Amalie decided to write a blog to document her journey and help others understand what it was like to struggle with an eating disorder. 

The blond stunner posts pics of her weight gain and boasts about the new found strength her body has. 

 

Amalie also posts photos of her meals, which include avocado toast for breakfast, candy and chocolate bars for snacks, and fruit platters for dinner.

 

“Luckily I got good treatment. I learned a lot, both from my treatment personnel and from studying the topic," says Amalie, who is currently studying psychology at Roehampton University in London.

"Weight-wise, by the spring of 2014 I was declared well, though it takes longer to recover mentally. I have been normal weight ever since without any major relapses.” 

While Amalie has not revealed her past nor her current weight, she says that "recovery was worth every tear." 

We bet it was also worth it for all the people she's inspired. Props to Amalie for providing such a positive message on social media. 

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